After discussing the last memories he shared with his dad, who died in July 2020, in the Hulu documentary Life in Pink, Machine Gun Kelly admitted that during a state of distress, his paranoia-induced suicide attempt that led to his sobriety from hard drugs after he put a shotgun in his mouth while on the phone with his fiancée Megan Fox.
Born Colson Baker, MGK found himself alone and riddled with paranoia while Fox was filming a movie in Bulgaria, stating:
“I wouldn’t leave my room. I started getting really, really, really dark.” “I started getting this really wild paranoia. Like, I kept getting paranoid that someone was gonna come and kill me.” “One of the days, I just fucking snapped.” “I called Megan, I was like, ‘You aren’t here for me.’ I’m in my room and I’m, like, freaking out on her. Dude, I put the shotgun in my mouth. And I’m yelling on the phone and like the barrel’s in my mouth. And I go to cock the shotgun and the bullet, as it comes back up, the shell just gets jammed. Megan’s like dead silent. That was kind of where I started realizing, like, something’s not right.”
Following guidance from Fox and his 12-year-old daughter who told him that they didn’t “want to be talking to you through a veil anymore,” the musician arrived at the realization: “I need to kick the drugs.”
Devoting himself to his work by spending 15 or more hours a day in the studio, his obsession with proving the success of his 2020 pop-punk pivot Tickets to my Downfall wasn’t an anomaly, the Machine Gun’s obsession with last year’s Mainstream Sellout weighed heavy on those around him, subsequently pushing them away.
“The problem is, I’m addicted to a new drug and that’s work,” MGK says. “It feels like I’ve dug a little too deep of a hole in that and I really need to get the fuck out of it and dig more into being what matters most, which is like a great father.”
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Author: Saul Goode
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