During his new interview with Zane Lowe of Apple Music 1 radio, Harry Styles came clean about the transformative and emotional period that inspired the creation of his third solo studio album Harry’s House, due out May 20.
For the former boy band member, one of the critical elements involved with creating the forthcoming full length was making up for lost time, including the whirlwind start to his teenage career with One Direction and the Herculean speed he’s maintained as solo act.
According to Styles “And for a really long time, I didn’t really know who I was if I didn’t do this. And that’s really scary because you go like, ‘OK, well if this ends, am I going to be good at handling it? What am I going to feel like?’ And I think it just gave me an opportunity to get comfortable with who I am and get to know that person a little bit more. And putting out the first single from this album was far and away the most relaxed I’ve ever felt putting anything out. I no longer feel like my overall happiness is dependent on whether a song goes here or goes here.”
Now 28, the British singer/songwriter said he’s still coming to terms with the past decade of his career and is now learning how to live in the moment after years of being unable to enjoy the highs or process the lows, especially during his One Direction days, adding:
“We’d go through real highs in the band and stuff, and it would always just feel like a relief. Like, ‘Oh, we didn’t fail. That feels like a massive relief.’ I never really felt like I celebrated anything.” “And I had a great time. Like, truly. And I think sometimes, with therapy as an example, is you open a bunch of doors in your house that you didn’t know existed, you find all these rooms and you get to explore them. And then in a time when it would be easier to emotionally coast, you can no longer do that. Because you know the room exists and the scale has just widened. And you feel everything that’s bad so much harder, you feel the good moments so much harder.”
Discussing his former boy bandmates Niall Horan, Louis Tomlinson, Zayn Malik, and Liam Payne, while they haven’t been as close as they were as in years past the group disbanded, Harry confirmed the deep love they still share for each other, stating:
“You know, I look at people who kind of went through some version of what we went through, but on their own. I’m like, I can’t imagine having done that, really.” “I feel really lucky that we always had each other to be this unit that felt like you could keep each other in check and you could just have someone else who gets it. Because it’s impossible to not, at times. I think everyone experiences this, feel[ing] like, ‘Oh, everyone else is on the other side of the glass and I’m on this side of the glass, and no one really gets it.’ And I think having that is kind of priceless. I think there is very much a respect between all of us, if we did something together. And that is something that you can’t really undo. And you know, it’s like a very deep love for each other, I think.”
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Author: Al Denté
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